The title is self explanatory. I tend to fall for the same guy, even though he has a different face. My latest has to be the biggest let down of all. Let me begin by saying I have make a lot of mistakes in dating. I tend to go for the “lost puppy dogs” as my mom calls them. They are the guys who are stupid attractive but have a lot of quarks. They tell me this in the beginning but I get in this illusion of “we can make it through anything”. By the end of the relationship, I am crying because everything they told me was a lie. The fantasy “we are going to get married and have kids” of course isn’t real. He has talked to me about where we are going to live and the fact that he loves me. I believed him so much that by this time, I am bitter and broken. Not to mention, it feels REALLY good when the person who was telling you all these things, starts posting about a new girl less than a week later even though you seemed like a secret outside of the friend group you hang out with.
The sad thing is, I can’t even blame him. I only blame me. I blame me because I keep falling for this type of guy. I blame me because I’m the one that keeps falling for the same type of person who has a different face. It’s a pattern. I blame me because I’m the one who believes the lies and the bullshit. It has left me bitter, torn, upset, lonely, and sad. Trust me darlin, I know that it is better to be alone then in misery with a cheater, but it still hurts. The fact of the matter is, I let myself fall every time. So how do I stop? I build up walls that seem impossible to tare down for the “good” ones.
So it is time. Time for a dating detox. I don’t know how long this will last, but I know that I need to get unbitter. I need to quit protecting myself to an extent and just trust the process. I need to give new “types” a chance and I need to date without the walls. I’m not saying to fall in love with the first guy I go out on a date with. I am just saying that I need to relax and just go with the flow and see what happens.
So to the same guy with a different face, as far as I’m concerned, you can go to hell. Good luck with your new woman. I hope she knows that you were seeing me, the same time you started seeing her. And I pray for her sake, you don’t do the same thing to her you did to me.
To me, be gentle with yourself and make sure you are happy before you get into another relationship. Be honest with yourself and identify the patterns you have seen in the past. But most importantly, don’t let the patterns completely ruin your future.
Same Guy - Different Face 